Relationships

Relationships are mirrors of ourselves. What we attract always mirrors qualities we have or beliefs we have about relationships. The things we don’t like are either reflections of what we do or what we believe.
We could not attract such people if the way they are didn’t somehow complement our own lives.

Affirmations for strengthening relationships:
I love and accept myself, and I am a magnet for good relationships.
I trust myself, I trust life, and I trust my partners.
Loving others is easy when I love and accept myself.
Even if I make a mistake, my partners help me through.
My love and acceptance of others creates lasting relationships.

What do you wish for this summer

It's Wishcasting Wednesday and the question is "What do you wish for this summer?"


I wish for a relaxing, cool summer for everyone in my household.

I wish that the dreams and possibilities in me, John, and Kate's lives come to fruition in wonderful and positive ways. 
I wish for the growth and rebuilding that my husband and I are doing with each other continues.

Dancing into Solstice

Poem by Jade Chi

We dance in slivers of silver moonlight
a gathering of women
illuminated in the quiet night.

A circle of goddesses disguised as lawyers,
artiste, teachers, office managers and healers.
We reflect each other's power
glowing from the morror of our eyes,
recognizing ancient moon cycles while
touching the rhythm of the earth with bare feet.

Footsteps pound to the ground
as if knocking to gain entry back into the core of creation.

We dance to toughen the skin of our soles
and soften the skin of the modern world.
We dance to unleash the anger of wounds and restriction
and tie together the threads of hope and shared intention.
We dance to connect the goddess within and ask her
how to solve the dilemas at hand and fuel this revolution.

She answers us with a smile, reminding us to keep dancing,
to throw our heads skyward and find ourselves again in
the laughter and starlight.

Morning on My Skin

Morning air feels different than evening air.  I don't know why, but morning air in the spring and summer, remind me of childhood; it brings out the sensory perception memories - feelings of places and times rather than memories of true happenings.

When I feel childhood sensory memories, it is from times spent in Illinois and Kentucky : the early morning air on my skin, that brush of humidity or fresh, brisk chill, walking in the fields, eating breakfast outside.  The odd part is the majority of my life has been spent in Louisiana, yet it is the Louisiana mornings that trigger the sensory memories.

My parents split when I was 2.  I spent my winters with my mother, a fairly conservative life, and the summers with my father in whatever hippy/beatnik living situation he happened to be in.  We lived on a farm in Illinois and a farming commune in Kentucky.  He converted an old school bus into a mobile home and loaded up five kids, a dog, and two adults into it and took cross-country road trips.

When I think of childhood, these are the things I remember.

Wishcasting Wednesday

Over at Jamie Ridler's it is Wishcasting Wednesday.  Today, Jamie asks "What is Your Money Wish?"

Funny, me and my husband were just talking about this while drinking our coffee this morning.  I reminded him it was the New Moon and a day to get those positive intentions out there.  His immediate response was "Win the Powerball!"  LOL, I'm sure that is one many people wish for.

My hope was that the manager situation would be resolved at his work.  His current manager is taking a job in a different department which leaves the assistant manager moving into the manager position and my husband becoming assistant manager.  This is what he was hired for 5 years ago and never came about.  There is even a long shot that he could be made manager of his department with the current assistant manager staying where he is (this was the current assistant manager's idea).

Regardless, the job limbo over there is stressing everyone out. 

My money wish is that my husband will get the promotion that he deserves and hat he can make the amount of money he wants to make.  I wish that the state would reinstate raises for their employees and I could get the raise that is due me according to my current job review and the one for last year. I wish to come into enough money to buy all of the family property out in the country for us to live on.

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This just in from my husband. The manager has officially accepted and moved into the other department.  The company is going to advertise for the manager position for the minimum time allowable then interview for it.  The current assistant manager will likely be the only one that applies for it and the same with the assistant position.  My husband will hopefully be the only one applying for it.

Woot!  Keep your fingers crossed and let the good role in.

Because I'm in a good place this morning

I know the last time I posted here I was in a really bad place. Today, I'm in a really good place so I decided to write down the happy :)

We had a house meeting, sort of a remodeling of the current relationship dynamic.  It was hard, painful, and good.  It was time for changes, and while the changes might be hard at times, there will be growth and happiness as well.

I am feeling very happy, uplifted, and positive.  This has been a long time coming, but we all had to be ready and able to move forward.  The last three years have been hard, but we have come through.  We have rebuilt our relationships from the ground up.  In some areas we are still shoring up the foundations.

I am grateful for all the loves in my life.
I am grateful for perseverance.
I am grateful for love and acceptance.
I am grateful.

I don't know what's the matter. I can't seem to stop crying today.

What do you wish to enjoy?

It is wishcasting wednesday and the question is what do yo wish to enjoy.
I can think of nothing and everything. I'm not even posting the link to Jamie's sight because I have nothing positive to offer.

I'm not really in a good place right now, though I am trying to find the happy in the day and bring my spirits up. What you put out there is what you get back and I'd like to get back some happy, especially with my husband.

I'm tired of getting back crap because that is what I put out there.
I'm tired of not being okay and trying to make due.
I'm tired.